Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Goddamn it

So, I woke up this morning.  Tried to eat breakfast, which made a speedy ejection from my stomach naught but 20 minutes after.  So, like a rational person, I called into work.  I felt (and still kind of feel) like shit.  There was no chance of me being productive.  I proceeded to dry-heave all morning, slept most of the day away, had fucked up dreams about gold, swords, and for some reason, Stanford quarterback Andrew Luck being a wizard.

Later in the afternoon, my dad, like the cool guy he is, asked if I needed anything.  I was awake, so I checked my phone.  Voicemail. From the hiring agency.  So I called the dude back, and turns out, I got the lay-off today.  Now, I was re-assured it wasn't an attendance thing.  I had a workplace incident a few weeks ago that caused me to miss a day of work, not my fault.  But it seems suspicious.

However, there is a silver lining.  They're placing me in a different plant for the same company, one that's a little closer.  Same pay and all that jazz, don't know what I'll be doing, but it'll be similar.  So I'll still have a job, but at what cost?  I was getting really sick of that place, and maybe a new plant will be a better change of pace, but I can't stay out of my own head, and how much that isn't what i want to be doing.  But my car has broken down (borrowing my dad's car at the moment) and I need more money to get it fixed.  So harsh.  Goddamn it.   I'm sorry.  I don't post anything for quite some time, and when I finally do, it's all this stuff.  I'm getting really sick of my life.

3 comments:

  1. You notice you can be too depressed but not too happy? I can't believe I'm saying this but look on the bright side. You have a job still, and it's closer to home. Your dad seems to be fine with you staying there, so keep at the work and you'll get the money you need to sort out your car soon enough, and get better soon.

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