Monday, May 19, 2014

Not Half Bad

Jesus, it's already May.  Time really flies past you when you sit in an office doing a job that you don't hate.  But the day to day still seems to linger on, but then I wake up today and suddenly we're already halfway through May.  And it barely got above fifty degrees Fahrenheit for most of the week.  Utterly ridiculous.  Winter was supposed to end months ago, but it still wants to remind us of how brutal it was, it's icy talons still gouging away.  We had frost the other night.  Frost.  In May.  Thanks Obama.

But I've still managed to get up everyday and head off to work, driving forty-five minutes to do so.  My only complaint is the commute, really, but that's just because I'm a completely defensive driver and other driver's have a tendency to piss me off to no end by their generally terrible driving.  I don't believe I could live in a city like LA or Chicago; my driving would guarantee that I would never be able to get anywhere.  I don't muscle my way in when merging, I wait for people to let me in. It's a bit of a curse, really.  Then again, no moving accidents or traffic violation in the 12 years that I've been behind the wheel.  Knock on wood.  But I'm still contracting, and my contract was extended all the way to October.  But, there are full time positions opening up soon, and I have a pretty good chance of getting those.  Otherwise, come August, I'll start looking at my options.  I don't want to now, only because I have a few days off in the next several months for important family things and I want to be able to get those days off still.  We'll see how it ends up.  It's such a bizarre feeling, though; I have money and stability, and I don't hate it, but I just want that uncertainty back.  I feel like it kept me honest somehow.  Like I've put on a tie (I actually don't have to wear a tie) and just went to town as another corporate employee.  Such a strange feeling.

Anyways, that's all I got for now.  Peace

2 comments:

  1. Well if you feel that way then I'd say you have an easy enough solution. Work until the time your contract ends, and save up your money (assuming you're working enough to save up). Then you just live off your savings for a while while you really try to make something of your writing. If you don't make it, then you have the experience you need to get back into the working world.

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  2. I'll trade you weather. I want my frost and winter back. :(

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